This is me

I am worth so much more than how you treat me. And even though I love you so incredibly much, I love myself more and it is time I find a new path.

You are living proof that spoiling and sheltering a child does nothing but cause arrogance and cruelty. You call everyone a bully for wanting nothing to do with you, ever try changing your attitude? Because if you didn’t act like you were better than the world you would see its so much easier to find good in people than to hate them. You blame your bad looks for people not liking you but it goes a lot deeper than appearance to make a friend. You negatively judge a world you know nothing about. You hide behind possessions like your computer. Being spoiled and having lots of things, things that you have not earned, does not make you a good person or a happy person. You play pretend with your closet homosexual boyfriend, maybe if you took a good look at something other than your own miserable self you would see who he really is. You stay up all night with your misery don’t you? You can’t focus on important things can you? Because all you are thinking of is yourself. You bring such misery to your life and your too busy blaming the world to notice. Being arrogant, being ignorant, being judgemental, being stuck up; are you really expecting happiness? You live in a fantasy world where people hate on you for being different, when in reality no one cares to bother with a person such as yourself. Open your eyes. You expect people to want you and love you when you give nothing in return. You are very very far from perfect so why is nobody good enough for you? You’ve created a miserable life for yourself and you are still so young little girl. Even after you have hurt me and made me feel horrible about my self I still wish you a chance to grow up and find love and selflessness. I wish I could say this to you personally but rather than acting your age you still act 5 years old. We both know you would hide and have some body else fight a battle for you that was never even intended on being a war. I have such a great amount of pity for you and your lonely incomplete future. You will never have real love because the only love you know has been bought for you to overcompensate the coldness in your world. And you will never have real love because you will never give it a chance.